Can I bitch about my fantasy football team this year?

I'm the only woman in a 10 team league. The guys I play with are serious players and so am I - money is involved - $ to buy in, $ for each transaction, team coming in last place pays a penalty.
High score each week wins a prize and then we have the playoffs at the end of the season with prize for 1st and 2nd place.
Draft order is determined by a random selection and we do a snake. Lucky me,(not), i drafted 1st and got Barkley - the #1 player going into the 2019 season. I HATE drafting earlier than 5th - especially 1st - it's always a bust and of course old Barkley has had a crappy year - right down the toilet. My second round pick was OBJ, (ho hum), - which I'll admit was an emotional selection and I bought in big time to the Browns/Baker/This is the year hype.
Well, I'm currently 6/6 for the season and the best I can be if I win this week and next is 8/6 and that won't get me anything. But I'm not in last place - woo hoo!
We have undroppable players based on their standings at the beginning of the season and of course Barkley and OBJ are on that list. I've gone through 4 TE's because of injuries. Thank heavens my QB is Lamar Jackson.
What a wasted season - bitch, bitch, bitch. Now I feel better. (And at least my '72 Dolphins are still the only team with a perfect season.)