Sometimes in certain discussions, I was uncertain as to WHICH direction to take the matter too.

As in, do I talk about reality in general, or how much I dislike certain culprits, ONLY focus on victims and how to help them, what I saw in a film including if that scene was it AND what was it trying to say, where I STAND on all of this etc, and this applied to a lot of matters in life in general.

Reality, wishful thinking, basic questions, and apologies for any inconvenience.

But sometimes, I wasn't too in the mood for total reality (as in ONLY reality), I also had some people in family who looked at matters OVERALL and not just how to help those affected but I wondered if that was productive knowing other stuff I discovered, in other cases I wondered but was uncertain if something WAS it BUT, I often secretly and even openly, wanted to avoid PANIC and didn't always feel like, at times for even personal reasons, going down certain routes but even so, in some cases, that was understandable as well, and I was preparing myself mentally for later cases too. Sometimes stigma of something gets into one's soul and just to inform you folks...

I only have ONE head, ONE brain, ONE body and ONE SOUL, I don't have "two souls". Hence sometimes, you know, but I get it too. In other cases I was having escapist and disturbing fun but of a variety of a gore hound and a movie sleaze hound but not real life pervert or apologist for ANY bad deeds of any kind, and I recently turned out to be not beyond "surprise shock value" in ADDITION to all that - notwithstanding certain understandable emotions folks.

And what do we think about people on the internet who are RIGHT about something in general but maybe too fierce and hateful towards culprits, whereas others say "if you execute them, you will be just as bad as them even in recognized examples with "you know what gender" as perpetrators", like, WHO is right and what is the stance, and are the former just being PERSONALLY angry or are they revealing some ACTUAL TRUTH? Even if in general, I do agree. Besides, I am a polite individual IN GENERAL and I prefer to stay that way too.

But a combination of these things just made me occasionally feel lost in some or other moments, and if I did mess up here or elsewhere, I DO apologize too.

I also had times in life where some people continued to express anger at something as oppose to try to explain it. They also forgot that law is man made, imperfect and rather complex overall, hence why I occasionally questioned it too, and some matters I thought of in certain ways not just due to its legal stance. But OK.

Point is, in addition to knowing truth, I sometimes wanted closure and assurance and "Ah, so that's why and how..." type of mantra, but on rare occasions I got a bit lost, that's alright now though too.